When Romance Smoked

Aww brosis. :( I’m sorry I wasn’t one of those pestery type people trying to call you. I’m making you one of my priority peoples to call when I get back.

Shh.  Sorry I flaked out on karaoke, I just had to go to work in the morning and the boss was giving me shit as it was.

I’ll be honest and say there’s a short list of people I’m excluding from my not wanting to be near anyone thing and you and Tish are definitely on it.  No worries, bro.  <3

:’C Not again.

Just.  From everyday people.  I don’t.  Feel like being around anyone.  I dunno.

I flaked on a bunch of people this weekend and didn’t go to Fanime because.  I don’t even know why.  And when they started calling me, I turned off my phone.

I don’t.  Really know what’s up with me.

So let’s try this out, let’s see how one actually pulls a total fade out from everything ever.

Meh. /hides at home

I. Kind of just want to avoid fanime all together. Whoops.

Sigh. Tim wants me to go though so I guess I have to go for a little while. And I almost want to go to the homestuck meetup but ha ha haaaaaaaa no that’s a terrible idea.

Bluh. How does I social interaction? (Poorly. Spoiler, the answer is poorly.)

Is MSPA down for anyone else?

Sunday at 4:13…I should have seen that coming.  At least it’s a day I’ll actually have a badge?  Idk.  Might just go down tomorrow and grab a sunday pass, if I can.

Only going to go see some friends though.  No cosplaying because I am sucky at it.  Maybe do some artist alley stuff.  Kind of want to go to Books’ panel but it’s at midnight or something? on sunday night.  We’ll see.

Bluh.  Fucking Fanime.

…I am going to destroy the huge windchime my dad bought my mom for her birthday.  No, dude.  Just.  No.

So fucking loud!  It doesn’t help it is super goddamn windy tonight.  wow I am typing pretty well for being in the dark.  gotten to used to typing on the phone which tends to autocorrect, which is its own kind of pain in the ass since half the time it sucks balls at reading my mind.

I don’t want to go to work tomorrow but I have to.  Lame.

Was productive, watched a couple movies, and now I can’t sleep.  Son of a bitch.

Most notes I’ve gotten: 57

On a youtube link.

:’D

Okay.  I am going to calm the fuck down, watch Cop Out because my brother found it in his room for me, and make some fucking jewelry. 

Not going to Fanime except for sunday because I don’t give a fuck and Tim wants to go sunday so sunday it is.

Just.  Need to get shit together.  Rage fueled motivation.

It would be weird to post on my secret blog because I don’t even know but whatever this is my tumblr I do what I want and if I feel like being maudlin if that is even the right word no one can fucking stop me. Saturnine? Fuck. Fuck words.

I miss you. I fucked up, I don’t know how to fix it because you’ve moved on and shouldn’t have to change things because I am a dipshit with self depreciation problems. I just miss you. I want to keep you and make things better. I kind of want to kiss you but haha no, I am a fat ugly fuck and you are gorgeous and just. No. Bad idea lane. Bad idea fucking continent.

Maybe I should have kept this to myself but fuckit don’t care too bad. Deal with my rampant depression Internet fuck you.

heysawbones replied to your post: /rolls on the floor while simultaneously punching…
sorry man I was on an urrplain

Not you, battle. It wasn’t Internet people at all, actually, just my bro and dad. It was very weird, disconcerting, and angering though I don’t think that’s how that word works. On the bright side, I got some rage fueled work done.